Pained, Tired, Helpless, Depressed but Grateful

As the title states, im feeling as such these days. Been battling my problem for quite awhile now. basically this whole year i have been fighting and fighting and fighting.. im not even sure what im afraid of anymore. i often wonder why am i plagued with this. i envy people who can lead a normal life. They just dont get how blessed that is. however through this i have learned a few things. and one thing is to count my blessings. Even though i am plagued with this, but i feel blessed too. I have a wonderful family that i wont swap with anything in the world. Im truly grateful that my parents love and care for me so much, and really happy to say i love them equally as well. Indeed, it is not you and me but Our family against the world! Thanks Pappy and Mummy. Really appreciate it for the care and concern.

The things that plague me are ridiculous stuff. (hearing, seeing,speech, thought, etc) and i cant get over it. recently it is speech that is plaguing me. walao very hard to explain lei. its just too ridiculous and senseless. it feels as though my world is breaking down..getting scared over the most stupidest of things. i really really really hope that i can be free of this once and for all...

Depressed =(( I need strength.