My Thoughts

Pyjamas Party

2011-02-20T01:04:00.002+08:00

Today i went for my first party. My very first nightlife activity with ihsan and kiat boon and ihsan's friend. Ended up smoking a few social sticks. almost wanted to smoke cishar but no space. well, it was quite boring. maybe cos we too little ppl and all guys. all i see are girls poledancing on the dance floor. quite hot, can see everything, but gets boring after awhile. then theres a live band on 3rd floor which is rather cool. thats my dream. performing for a crowd. hahaha. me and kiat boon left at 1240, which is quite early and now im in home sweet home again. the atmosphere there was great but i guess we were too passive to enjoy the party fully. dint expect much cos our first time clubbing also. oh well. just an experience. i cant imagine myself poledancing or dancing on the dance floor. too passive liao. hahaha. well thats all for tonight. :)

Rozen Maiden Bookmarks

2011-01-22T19:12:00.004+08:00

went and bought my rozen maiden bookmarks from meng li today, which is like wtf far at paya lebar mrt. a bit exp even after all the discounts, 16 bucks for 8. 2 bucks each. but the market price is 25 so im not complaining. james is selling me 2 sets at 20 omg. hahahaa yes! good bargain. then went back to toh yi eat lunch and cut hair. not bad la, i like that saloon a lot. quite pro. next time come out ns go there dye hair and style also. :)

Mitsubishi Lancer Evolution X

2011-01-21T15:23:00.003+08:00

wake up at 3am today.used comp as usual til went morning walk with mum, after which we went for breakfast and then go home. played one match of dota and then went to see doctor ang. after that we proceeded to ubi mitsubishi show room. wa lao lan evo x costs 206999, lancer ex costs 85999. freaking expensive. i hope after i get my license i can get a lancer ex. :) lancer ftw! and when i have the money, its lan evo time.

Buying cosplay items

2011-01-18T15:57:00.003+08:00

went to chinatown point today and visited pan in the box again. bought akatsuki hat, kunai and throwing star, and a warcraft ring. to get 2 stamps. woo. i complete the whole tobi set alr. its time to do this man.

Sad day

2011-01-18T04:51:00.002+08:00

i am posting about ytd cos ytd dint post. wake up at around 3 plus. crazy shit man so early. i dono why but recently keep waking up so early. its kinda fun LOL.um..lets see..morning i spent it at home playing dota facebook and forum. then after that went to lan lab to train daytona and initial d. mangaged to get an initial D card! im so happy. but i got the wrong car! wtf. i wan mitsubishi lancer evolution X but i got Nissan fairlady Z instead. cool game man. and my daytona improved! im so happy. after that went eat with mummy then go home. we bought photo album and printed cosplay photos to put inside.it will be my cosplay album.

after that went to mdis to learn more about the course. it was better than expected cos the staff there cans speak mandarin and so can communicate with my parents. i really wanna do this course sia. haha after that went driving there. when i declare i got mental disorder, they dont let me get pdl. fuck them. now need go imh see doctor certify i driving fit then can drive, i actually don mind both. but still made me sad and had a heated argument with my parents. after that i went shop for track pants and berms. then went arcade train more daytona. and thats my day :)

My First Camera

2011-01-16T21:17:00.003+08:00

I actually got my first camera today! The model is..Fujifilm finepix ax250. its a noobie camera which costs only 209. of cos i used my money to buy de. i bought it at harvey norman bukit panjang plaza. XD omg so xcited to use this camera.

Today was a rather boring day. wake up at 5am. use comp until able to follow mum fetch sis to bukit panjang and then go eat breakfast, and then walk. supposedly got some minister supposed to come plant trees. original plan was to see, but wait too long in the end just went home. haha. After that i went to kiat boon's house, which is super boring also. watch him maple, play some dance game, and entertain his sis. i rather like his sis, dam cute. then went arcade. then movie. which sucks like hell. talking with joanne all the way. LOL. then aftr that went everlast then go home.

Thats all folks. :)

Busy day

2011-01-11T22:27:00.002+08:00

today was a rather busy day. started out with me waking up, then realising i mostly cant run in the afternoon, ran at 11am instead. woo. im super accurate. aftr that went to eat and fetch sis. and then go home, and went to eye clinic. i did not get any increment at all. yay. but need prescribe new specs. i got purple specs!! then aftr that went to get specs and thn go home.

After which was dinner and aftr that brought sis down to westmall pro trim to cut hinamori momo's hair. which turned out rathr okay but then in the end get screwed by mum. expected cos too expensive liao. bought 3 more polo tees. encouragement to b more independent in transport.

Just Live, Be Strong

2010-11-05T23:38:00.002+08:00

I have decided to revive this blog by posting more often. i shall comment on the long weekend. haha. yesterday after work = dota a bit. then managed to jio kiat boon to come my house overnight. he arrived dam late. arnd 10-11 plus. but still earlier than justin and jia cheng, whom arrived at 1-2 am. lol met them at the park for a few puffs. shouldnt be smoking cos got asthma, but i threw caution to the wing. luckily still ok. fking shag. sleep 4 hours only.

Then today went for cosplay shopping. pan in the box is still the most value for money even thuogh its overpriced..otaku house is FREAKING expensive. i must admit i walked a lot today. yay. can lose some weight. super unfit now. haha. watched the legend of the guardian some owl show. Looks more like an rpg than a movie. but still not bad la. after that we went lan at game haven. and then cabbed home.

I will jiayou and never give up.

2010-10-28T08:46:00.001+08:00

Life is depressing. At work now, and i feel rather sian. combating my psychiatric problem is really very painful. haiz. depressed.

Pained, Tired, Helpless, Depressed but Grateful

2010-10-22T08:49:00.002+08:00

As the title states, im feeling as such these days. Been battling my problem for quite awhile now. basically this whole year i have been fighting and fighting and fighting.. im not even sure what im afraid of anymore. i often wonder why am i plagued with this. i envy people who can lead a normal life. They just dont get how blessed that is. however through this i have learned a few things. and one thing is to count my blessings. Even though i am plagued with this, but i feel blessed too. I have a wonderful family that i wont swap with anything in the world. Im truly grateful that my parents love and care for me so much, and really happy to say i love them equally as well. Indeed, it is not you and me but Our family against the world! Thanks Pappy and Mummy. Really appreciate it for the care and concern.

The things that plague me are ridiculous stuff. (hearing, seeing,speech, thought, etc) and i cant get over it. recently it is speech that is plaguing me. walao very hard to explain lei. its just too ridiculous and senseless. it feels as though my world is breaking down..getting scared over the most stupidest of things. i really really really hope that i can be free of this once and for all...

Depressed =(( I need strength.

2010-09-27T22:27:00.003+08:00

Determined to recover, once and for all.

I need to stop buying cds! haha. seriously. i keep buying and buying. cds are just <3 its the only thing worth spending on. haha. its my passion and love. i made a vow to not buy cds for 2 months. and i will abide by it. Music is my life.

2010-09-22T16:09:00.002+08:00

I took off today and went to si ma lu temple to pray and to the og there with my mum. the main reason is to visit the temple bcos i am told to go pray at the temple more often by a master and i will. haha. It was reallly FLOODED there. Human traffic i mean. must careful about ur wallets. haha. after that went to og lor. wanted to shop for slippers, and clothes for saturday's event. in the end bought 2 denizen jeans and my RED checkered shirt. at last. its not exactly totally red but it still looks good. means i got to go get my full red black checkered shirt someday. haha.

After that went to fetch sis from her school and went to bukit timah plaza. We ate at the basement 2 veg rice stalll and went to the new popular. looks uber different. hahaha. and i got my to hebe album! sweet.

I will win this war, for good.

2010-09-02T17:38:00.002+08:00

I wont ever give up and i will do watever it takes to recover fully. I will become normal again.

I feel good

2010-08-22T22:33:00.002+08:00

Im glad that i went out with kj for the midnight karaoke. Made me realise how to counter my psychiatric illness, and im feeling so much better now.

I think i will have the mood to keep blogging again. last time no mood to blog cos well the psychiatric problem. but i think now can alr.

For my sis birthday i think i would be buying her an ipod nano! The reason being. SHE DONT LISTEN TO SONGS. shes missing out on so much things. i know cos music and singing are my life, cant live without them. she needs music in her life. essential item to buy. lol.

im going to bbdc tomorrow. i dono anything about the testing system. go learn more about it lor. very important cos i need to faster finish my driving course so can concentrate more on my a levels.

2010-08-10T00:44:00.002+08:00

I changed into a simple template. i think simplicity is the best. besides, this is just another place to vent my thoughts, and express what i feel. No one comes here the better. I know the internet is open. but i see no point in writing in a diary. kinda weird.

i dont feel like going to work tomorrow. only 1 day holiday :( im not prepared. haha. i want take off on wednesday then. hopefully can.

This is freaking sian, i should have more control over my thoughts. and don be scared. there is nothing to be scared of. CONTROL IS THE KEY.

I should do more things other than keep playing the computer. Super no life. im addicted. just keep on playing. im not playing tomorrow then. Weekdays not playing. going sleep already. changing address i guess. don wan anyone here

My first shopping trip to HIGH END shops.

2010-06-14T23:24:00.002+08:00

This is gay. The prices of the merchandise. Today was my eye opening experience in high end shopping. After work, James called me up and ask me go shopping. He wanted to shop for his boyfriend's present, so i accompanied him. Learnt more about brands and stuff tonight, though its unlikely that I will ever buy them. went to orchard, and visited shops like YSL, LV, GA, Hermes, and a few other. which is like super attas. hermes was..super..high end. lol. cant imagine myself spending like that. its too gay. everything too attas for me liao. haha. Doesnt suit me, i guess.

Think i prefer something not so attas, like my usual styles. Street style. Cool-smart. those genres. rather than high end attas and aloof. It is not me la. haha. though i think YSL is awesome. its the most low end of all the high end shops i went. one shirt is 400? shoes 700? around there. accessory 300? then hermes was like one belt. 1k+ wtf one accessory 1k+. everything at least 600 and above and i saw a 74k necklace. lol. cmi la. i was like.. wow wtf. the most expensive thing i ever bought was a 200 dollars leather jacket. and no brand one. lol. im poor.

I wont be comfortable buying such high end stuff, so no worries. And, i need to shed the pounds for the girls already. cannot keep this figure lol.

RAVAGED, no more

2010-05-19T00:04:00.003+08:00

Truth being, im ravaged by the illness since new year eve. relapses and stuff. its painful, ardous and outright sucky..its lonely oso. im not been posting therefore, dam sad. no one to reside to. my parents dont even know im suffering. but today, hopefully im better. just like that horoscope said, my life would begin anew. put down the painful memories and go on.

Been spamming lots of albums recently. don wn to talk about it, change gear! its over le! haha. but sweee i bought 10th album liao. super nice lor. jay rocks, as usual. woo. sad. i cant get his concert tickets.

watching one piece recently oso. dam nice. love it liao. haha. its good.

Wow, my skills are still intact

2010-05-07T23:39:00.002+08:00

Its kinda awesome that despite not playing for weeks, im still adept at Dota. cool. its like becoming part of my instincts. never played with friends for weeks. i never seen there for very long..maybe a month. kinda miss them. they're the most important people in my life. in many instances, the thought of our togetherness made me through arduous situations.

Today, im off from work. quite a good day. bought lots of stuff with mum on shopping trip at plaza. and recently the memories of us keep coming back to me. cant help but feel nolstagic. its bittersweet. i even think of you, more than once. its so sudden. after 2 long years, then i suddenly reminiscence about us. absurb. haha. its all in the past. besides, u went and got on with life so well without me. kinda sad at the beginning, keep ignoring it. and maybe i wanted to forget so badly. Ya but of course, i rather see u happy these 2 years, then sad like me these 2 years. but of cos mine being sad is not totally of our parting, mainly of my situation at jj. well let bygones be bygones.

tomorrow wil be SPE le. and the first lesson after kiat boon left. i wonder what are we going to do after lesson. go home? good luck to me tomorrow!

woo today is a good day.

2010-05-04T20:10:00.002+08:00

im feeling quite good today, haha realised that life is not just about relaxing, doing things that you want all the time, its about doing meaningful stuff too. there are so many other things to do. im a spoilt person, i admit. haha. Yeah i managed to do one set today, and later on i'll sing too. :D its quite difficult to practise w.o the right key! lol but it wont hinder me. i'll keep singing.

im just waiting and waiting. makes it hard to nurture true feelings this way.

Never knew watching videos could be so pek chek

2010-05-02T20:13:00.002+08:00

i need a new com. after my sis blasted the laptop,i reeeally need a new comp. the comp outside is ancient, inherited from my primary school days. haha. its pentium 4. and now that the adapter signal receiving is crap, im left with some old shit that lags when streaming video from internet. wtf!? but i no money, and is really difficult to save up, 100 goes to parents, 200 to saving. 100 left. and this 100 is used for spending every month. no more money to save for a new comp or a karaoke system. i considered cutting the 200 to 150, but 50 more doesnt make any difference. hey. 300/420 is untouchable. how am i going to save for 1 laptop =.= any donates? :)

2010-05-01T23:14:00.003+08:00

Maybe i should start posting everyday again. i think i should change the name to something meaningful. doesnt matter if no one reads it. its just like my diary. i cant keep diaries. its so corny. but i can keep blogs, god knows why too. lol. they're the same, and now that supposedly no followers its even more similar. if there is, im really surpised. haha. do let me know ya. LOL.

time do flies. Its May of 2010 already. seemingly, 5 months has passed since A levels. 5 months of life-wasting. been doing nothing meaningful, grown utterly fat, now leading a no-life life; i guess its time to change.

Here are the list of to-dos.
1. singing
2. exercise
3. reading
4. love
speaking of which, jm... too late? most probably? but the feelings stand true, for the last 2 years, and even now. you must know...its just the circumstances all along that do not allow me..to even start. its painful, only able to keep looking at u and not do anything. but your smile made the 2 painful years i had easier to bear with, and always warmed my heart. your smile is your greatest asset, and that which made me fall head over heels for you ever since the first day i saw you at orientation.
These 2 years, my 2 years of jc life, was a disappointment, an unexpected big failure. i used to be so happy, din used to be such a loser. this isnt the real me. but it all went down..it was my fault to a certain extent, and because of this, i cannot express my feelings towards you, i cannot even try to be friends at the start because i felt so inferior, i felt that i was better off not knowing you, cos im an outcast, theres no denying it...and it just doesnt befit that i be your friend..i felt out of place in jj, having so little friends, but at the very end, i tried. facebook. and i even managed to take a photo with you at prom. guess that was the happiest day of my jc life. really. i was really happy. and now, jj life had finally ended. i tot i would be happier, but actually i still hold some feelings towards the school. its weird. am i always so sentimental? maybe its because im unwilling to let my 2 years end like that. i so want to re-live it properly, because i know the hong yang in jj is not the true me. the anti social, outcasted, sad, and always crying in the heart dint used to be me. how i had wanted to turn back time. every day i yearn for such a wish. but of course, reality is harsh. i ruined my jc life. but withnin, i learnt lessons. life's not all smooth flowing, and there are always people who can literally turn ur life upside down. but there are people who can make my day better as well. and these people, i really have to thank. people like wee lat, who was my best friend when i was really deep in the shithole. choir, who made me forget my worries and situation when we sang in unison. nicole, who was a true friend amongst acquaintances. and finally you, who i secretly admired all along..just your smile is enough to make my day better..
i want to see that heart-warming smile again...

wow. i just got all sentimental and wrote down thoughts of my past 2 years. haha..back to the goals part. WITH DETERMINATION NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE. is wat i want to believe. determined to have a life. once again.

2010-04-05T15:58:00.002+08:00

yesterday was a good day til i fell sick, oh and before that my pokemon hanged and spoil in front of my face. its my 3rd restart.the 5 days worth of work gone AGAIN. can cry one. fucked up lei. guess u pay for wat u get. next time i think i just get the real deal. so not playing pokemon for awhile now i guess. and then i fell sick. like seriously very very sick, and it went to even 39.6. or higher. so im at home now, sleeping the whole day. pls get well soon, this is so saddening. just went i felt so much better. why? fucked up. zzz

nvm, i wont be pessimistic over this, once this is over, im going to live my life stronger than before :) SPE shall be my main focus. haha. Singing is life.

2010-03-22T23:33:00.002+08:00

Today was rather slack at work, but still got to do abit. hell yesterday was a nightmare cos i had my breathing difficulty cropping up after a little exertion when running. so i went to see the doctor today, and he scheduled an x-ray this wednesday and an respiratory appt at nuh. i think its just the allergic rhinitis, cos after i sprayed i feel so much better tonight.

Got my sim brochures today. The UOL external system sounds appealing. haiz. but a degree is really very important. its not just anyhow get a degree, cos its about money and job. if it cant feed you, it is not feasible. i think i would rather stick to a bio degree, become a teacher, have a stable income, lead a stable life. so, see how my application to the other unis fare. its safe. business is appealing to me only because im lured by greed for riches. but its risky. and wat if i get a lousy job i hate, and feel miserable working everyday. i wont progress well. but really got chance to do well if i really wan to, its all up to you. actually i think as long u put in effort u can earn money de. i see how. now dilemma again :( advice anyone?

2010-03-14T22:23:00.002+08:00

woke up at 2pm today. SUPERB. Lol. my schedule die straight on the spot. cos i keep seeing the window like veri dark i tot its still 7am that kind of timing. then keep lazing. of cos, its becos i slept late last night oso. am i getting asthma? shit, one day must go see doctor le. blame it on the smoking. definetely not for me. thats why i quit when i just started. :D its all for the best oso.

Oh. some activity at last, but oh dear, she sounds sad. Do have hope! All the Best!! Its really the school problem after all, seeing so many ppl in the same state. but its my problem as well. won't let it happen in university again.

2010-01-28T20:28:00.002+08:00

Never had i been sick until so sian. been sick since last saturday. and on mc on mon tues and even today! wtf. 3 days off 1 week. must give it my all next week to make up liao. feel so guilty. partly my fault, cos i dont know how to take care of myself. actually i know, but i put friends before my health. getting screwed is worth it. but i really want to go to singing lesson this week. pls let me go. or else super waste money.

Let your life be more meaningful.

2010-01-25T17:32:00.003+08:00

this blog quite dead. lazy to post sia. maybe nothing to post too. today on mc. hope i get well by tomorrow. need to put in effort in my army life. need to be more meticulous! more focused. the others all enlisting next week. veri sad lei. i wan go out before its too late. i really wish everyone would stay together..keep in contact!! saving money for rocky's operation. salary faster come! i need to recover first oso. maybe go check price? i everyday need save money.. cmon. COOKHOUSE!! pls don fall sick or late for next singing lesson. haiz. need go learn from them again. veri waste money and time.

2010-01-18T22:26:00.002+08:00

finally enlisted into army! not bad the camp quite near my home, and jj too. haha. one week plus already so far still rather slack. but slowly and surely the pace will balloon. and then i will be super stressed. haha. still adapting to this new lifestyle. every night i have limited time. especially so when i need to juggle exercise with singing lesson practises. havent started practising. veri urgent now. need to pia the next 4 days liao. haha. exercise oso super important now lor. everyday office work and the food there so much confirm fat if this goes on. set my own goals and move forward! discipline fighting spirit perserverance!

2009-12-28T23:46:00.002+08:00

im becoming super nocturnal. day is when i sleep and night is when i functions. need to turn back the clock to the correct one. haha. just went to buy some presents at jp. ouchh. super broke. >< tml going sentosa for 406 outing! hope it wont fail! pls. gotcha feeling that nye oso going to fail. sian. wats with the depression with everyone. haha like everyone dam sian diao la. i think from sec school til now every year the same everyone sick of it alr. haha. our team dying liao. yule died. hs quit dota. soon i gg army. everyone like great depression. dam sad one. but i believe in us! cfm wont fall apart. :)

2009-12-26T22:44:00.002+08:00

Ughhh finally tried smoking on christmas eve countdown lol. no pleasure but not too stinky oso. makes ur mouth and hands stink, and ur throat uncomfortable. of course the usual damage associated with smoking oso comes in, and singers don smoke. so no more smoking for me. yuck stinks. lol. went to party world ytd. omg. super nice lor. the branch at city vibe. its like so much better than kbox! haha. dam nice the ambience and surroundings. haha in love with it le. the mikes are so much better oso. now no voice already. =.= lol 31.60 for one night. quite expensive but kbox was 39! haha. nexr time try party world in the day see how. my new specs came in!! XD haha zz my dad say it looks like girl specs. omg. a bit lei. but don care. buy liao. i dam dizzy la wear this. i think cos veri thick the lens. lol.now phone no camera cannot take picture. :(

woo got a present!

2009-12-23T01:01:00.002+08:00

wow. im sleeping very late every single night now. lol. bad habit! haha everyday drink alcohol oso lor. even though its just a little..and sometimes it still tastes like crap but i kinda like it. haha my life now oso dam no life. facebook games just keep pressing. dota. anime. drama. lol. its going to be christmas already! really really hope there will be a countdown this year too. its like the last year already. quite sad actually. i really really hope that everyone will keep in touch even in ns and in uni. it matters a lot to me. especially. cruise is coming oso. and ns. need to start working out liao. no more excuses or else really become pig. NO! im not becoming a pig. quite fat liao. but my leg injured. maybe can do train biceps and upper body lor. don give excuses anymore! go hong yang. :D oh bought a new noob phone. samsung de. fuck lor i today bring rocky out then splash water on it. im so sorry new phone. i will take good care of you de. dont want it to end up like my old phone. super cui. haha. super basic phone. no camera. ns ma. but i guess im okay with it. haha. as long as i can get my hands on an ipod. =.= maybe after first month of ns? thats like my one month allowance of ns la. wonder wat i will do there. clerk? lol. aravinhan oso haven received his enlistment.wtf la so unfair. i wan slack more..

Really looking forward to the singing lessons! im so going to lend every week. woooohooo. FEED my need. tomorrow micro chipping rocky oso. haha check out www.petcall.org. i wan presents for christmass!!!! >< haha who doesnt? XP

2009-12-12T01:49:00.002+08:00

Actually feel quite wasted everyday dota. lol. i think i keep sleeping everyday sia. lol. sleep maniac sia. haha. shld go train. learn ur music theory. finish unfinished work. haha. oh well. tomorrow tomorrow. daniel came my house overnight today. eh the drama he intro quite nice seh. quite funny. oh noes. tomorrow going lan again. haha nice life i have. =( geez. need other enrichment.

2009-12-08T12:37:00.003+08:00

heys. prom was great last night. it was really better than expected. i was very happy yesterday. mostly probably the most happy day of my jj life ba. haha. thanks everyone! because of u all i did not emo really much. (: and thanks to j low yule hs and kiat for accompanying me the night after prom. though we lost many matches it was the warmth of the thought that really makes me smile. next time go clubbing. we need something other than lan seriously. haha.

2009-12-03T21:01:00.001+08:00

SHAG BECAUSE OF HAPPINESS soooo happy. today im free. kiss u goodbye exams and hello to life! found our music school already. hopefully, we'll enjoy our lessons there and improve our singing together. Cheers! omg. happy. XDD

im so sorry ying shuen. happy belated birthday!

2009-11-29T13:42:00.002+08:00

i hate procrastination!! always say want to study then dint study. sucks much. lol. got to learn how to make promises that i can keep, not empty promises. there are so many things to improve on. haha. so work towards it then. today must study lerh. =0 hoho i want see the gamblers got win money or not LOL. haha if they lose im so gonna laugh dont tink im joining the gamblers league. not going to lose money! =)

2009-11-25T04:56:00.002+08:00

Yoo it has been long since i last posted! wooo. why am i still awake? its bcos i have no bed tonight. wdf! i escaped from home!! ^^ haha. Sadly, haven tried something so drama before and never will lol. the others just finished wii-ing at my house and all went to sleep le. poor me no beds so i guess i wont sleep ba. omg. a day of total slacking. haha. supposed to be shuang. but i dont really feel the joy, cos i know i could have done a lot better in my papers after the first week. this feeling sucks. knowing u could have done better if u actually put in ur heart and soul in it. but after 1st week of intense full time mugging, i lost the will to put in effort. fuck. totally screwed my papers. i seriously like sleep 2-3 hours per day in the first week, i kua liao. =( sadded lor. but left one more paper..i must put in my all already. today last day of slacking already.must go all out for the last paper. its really the last le. Ok enuff about a levels. supposed to slack now. haha.

The lan was rather failure. wanted 10 but in the end got 6 then 7. quite pathetic. but we still spent 10. haha. almost bought cigarettes tonight with yule. but nah. yz and cx total objection so next time lor. besides i only trying 1 nia. wii was not bad la. hs slept all the way lor. best. wdf dunno he come here for wat. lol sleep only haha weakling XD he wont come here oso. lolol. After a levels so many activities to do. Singing course, Gym, Play, Cruise, work, learn song writing learn guitar and piano. omg. haha. woots. and yes drink! wonder how life would be. it would be the next phase in my life le. goodbye to emo days and bleeding friendships, goodbye to past wounds, hello to fresh hopes, new friends, new lease of life, of aspirations and goals to be fulfilled, and of learning. hopefully it will all be better. Treasuring friendships is wat i value most now...after all that pain, i cant bear to lose any of u. Almost losing one of u tears my heart like nothing describable with words (tts great that it went okay)haha. I will march forward, and face this new dawn head up high.

2009-11-05T16:54:00.001+08:00

yesterday was straight overkill. really wanted to study de; but sadly we study til 1am only then wii til 5am. lol basically i was thrashed in almost every game lar. wdf! i need wii training after a levels liao. haha. later go finish up bio and pia maths tml. :x hais! and im a bit sick now lor. my throat feels weird cos my nose problem. i must jiayou..later bring rocky out walk ba, at night full steam ahead.

2009-10-28T00:14:00.002+08:00

Rest In Peace grandma... have a smooth journey, and do watch over us...we will remember you forever.
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Spoilt the laptop today lol there goes the maple. haha. it all started with a spoilt mp3 usb connector i connect le then com spoil liao cannot on le. gg. omg bio dam hard to memo..jyjy i wont give up

2009-10-19T22:20:00.002+08:00

scary. a levels are creeping in. must jiayou.. very stressed lei. especially if you dam lousy and keep getting stuck at some shit. esp today maths. == sian lei. super streess lor. >< and i think my com thio virus cannot go msn. wat the shit. haha. im going to wake up as though school day tml then go mac. at last. can sort of go mac without going to school first. hehe. study chemm then after that go for tuition. jyjyjyjy. my com lags like shit now. fuck u virus.

2009-10-13T11:30:00.002+08:00

been awhile since i last blogged. with less than 30 days to a levels, i sure am getting worried. somemore i nvr study since sunday cos of stomach flu, and have been resting at home since then. i think tomorrow i will be ready to start mugging again. creative having huge promotions. haha. zen mx at 199! xi fi 2 at 249! thats fucking awesome. sadly i oni have 136 in my account now. which is 53 bucks lacking. blame it on the drinking. the lans. and wat nots. haha. my stomach seriously feels weird.. but i am feeling better already. =D

2009-10-01T22:28:00.003+08:00

Maybe going back nan hua for mid autumn tomorrow, maybe not? hs not even going. wdf! haha. see first.. gotta bring the beat back! doing ionic eq tml. prepare for saturday tuition. and hey DDR songs rocks. all kope from limewire. hehe. veri random one but all nice lei. wish i have all the albums. i think dam cool. though. dancing is hard. dont want to be laughed at in arcade. im sorry but u really veri gay. hahaha. =/

2009-10-01T18:52:00.003+08:00

Its 1st october! a levels are steadily approaching. sadly im not prepared. i ought to be. i shall try my best. (:

Its hock seng's birthday tomorrow! haha. sharing present with kiat boon. confirm must buy 1 cos veri touched he organised a nhf outing for us on our birthday. its the best birthday i had. haha. tomorrow is nan hua mid autumn. but i not going, =/ there is drinking after that too. maybe we go pass hs the present? haha but he oso not going lerh. shifted wc3 to another folder. i wont touch liao!!

2009-09-29T22:14:00.002+08:00

Fuck. i just wasted one whole day away. cannot la. i pon school today. then dam emo cos of someone's words. FUCK IT. i need a new life man. shall start anew.fuckkkkkk laaaa sucks so much, and im fat..lol random. then come home oso get scold by mum cos pei rocky. i need to pei him ok! i like neglecting him. then pei him awhile oso got fault meh. even if he bark when i go off, he will eventually stop? zzz. wat u want me to do. but its oso my fault la. maybe i shld have pei him like in the day. im sorry for making so much trouble and be no help at all everytime. but on the positive note, i bought my flip flops! =D and its a steal. fake NUM. surfers paradise. hohoho. cheapskate me haha. but its seriously a damn good steal woohoo. speaking of which i ate fish sweet today. taste of my life man. must try. go golden mile complex thai supermarket. HAHAHA. good luck to you.

2009-09-27T22:36:00.002+08:00

woah navy is sooo cool. maybe i go reply say im interested in navy =0 if like that then its like goodbye to pes E status and must chiong fitness liao. i think navy is veri appealing to me. quite funny the advertisement. LOL. ok got to mug bio tomorrow liao. paper 3! MY PAPER 3 sucks like fuck. hohoho. jiayou liao. went swimming with yz again. lol. quite weak cos still sick, i realised im still sick only after i swam cos no strength and breath, cos my nose is like dying. =S good luck to the j1s having promos! jiayou and all the best! FIGHT ON! me too XP

2009-09-27T11:37:00.003+08:00

I guess its okay to do so. XD sweet. 46 more days. jia you! got lotsa tys questions need to ask mr ng later. bong. f maths is super sian lor, and S paper is undo-able. o.o

2009-09-25T13:54:00.002+08:00

get better soon.. so can mug..don fall sick at a time like this. focus..rest well. omg i nvr wear for 1 day my earhole close liao. haha so have to force again. i think it dropped out when im sleeping.
Its just that. im really lonely deep inside.. =( next time ba, when i got the time. shouldnt behave like this right. haha.

2009-09-22T22:52:00.002+08:00

its been days. i thought it would all be okay by now. looks like im gonna just have to suffer in silence. i know its u who is suffering instead, but there are limits to wat i can do, sincere apologising doesnt work, but hey i dont know wat your thinking too. but, i did pour my heart out to you, and maybe u can put urself in my shoes too, to see how i felt that day and ever since then. though, i really want to be able to talk to u once more and to do that i will continue hoping that one day u will accept me once again..

went changi today! haha. keep ponning. tml not ponning ba. go school! lol. just came home from yz house gym =D ssong bo. e return trip from changi quite song. as kiat boon says. hormones raging. :O hahaha.

2009-09-20T22:18:00.004+08:00

Justin bought a waveboard at queensway. looks real fun! master it and one becomes woahhh awesome haha. waveboard gang. waveboard everywhere u go. aizai hahaha. if really fun maybe go buy someday. haha. e crazy stunts are really crazy though. lol. going to mug liao. yes. XDD haha. i want learn first aid from ying shuen! haha. teach me someday. im serious. i think quite useful. =) like when ppl get injured or caring for ur girl. its really useful. and yeah. after the a levels im so going to beat him up if he li siao me, say at prom. im serious. wont get expelled. im free to do wat i like liao. mwahahah. oh this is the earring. simplicity rocks

2009-09-20T20:29:00.003+08:00

Why dont you play louder? Bring the house down.

Went swimming with yuzhi today. hahah, i dam fat liao so must swim. not bad swim 14 rounds ^^ haha. not bad la so long never see him liao, like months. 0.0 haha. tired now.

2009-09-19T23:19:00.002+08:00

The last night. The final drinks, before the "a's" pretty enjoyable in all. though i really was veri veri veri emo during first half of the lan. seriously. i think i play best when im sad la. im crazy la. just that sad liao veri easy play. dunno why. happy get high liao then cannot think straight LOL. hahaha. but pls la, its really a veri emo thing that i really really really really dont want to have history repeat to my friends. i will confirm break down, its just really a veri sensitive issue with me luh. so, it really hurts. omg all the pimples are coming out liao. hahaha. Lan was good. 4v5 was fun. i shout until my throat were hoarse. + whisky and vodka+ mac + laksa = ultimate GG. then today. gamble. crazy lor i all in twice then i lose everything LOL, first all in win a lot then aiya 6 bucks la, just hiong. hahaha. oh ya me and kiat oso almost did something hiong. got this cute girl on the bus hahaha =pp oh and i bought my earring! HAPPY!! ^^

2009-09-18T19:04:00.002+08:00

oh noes i think im becoming a tech geek. im craving for xi fi and aurvana live lei wdf they having comex price la! haha no money buy faster save =). was at marina just now. ate jack's place. lol. quite expensive. but the most worth there liao lor. student meal got 2 scoop ice cream 1 main course and 1 drink =D now at kiat boon house so just come blog a bit. and serriously ppr 2 quite fun at the arcade lol but i dno how to do it with style. i think i probably dance like some nerd! LOL hahaha first time lei not bad liao. quite funny. hey thanks daniel for pei ing me dota last night, it was a relief from e sadness playing with you, and hey look at my owning pudge!! hahaha ^^ leon not going LAN later so i have to sub him. i guess those days were the past man. looks like we're going to be late again hahah be signing off. showdown.

2009-09-17T23:22:00.002+08:00

went to school, then went home bcos of headache. LOL. after that got tuition. then i end tuition early so i can rush over to JP library haha. i really rush okay! :) ok la, did quite a few questions, swee la. though im really sorry, i think i really overkill myself there. hais. sorry. even left my phone there. fuck! but wat pains me is the cold shoulder..it hurts..=(

tml. dont feel like goiong school. but still have to go. ! haha.

2009-09-13T15:09:00.003+08:00

school is reopening tomorrow. after such an extensive break. good that it will help me get in the mood for studying. jiayou plsssss. ouch this morning is the 2nd time i wake up with so heavy headache. i wonder wats the problem! i din drink alcohol or wat lei. this is dumb man. shall go run later, maybe my body seeks exercise. i really veri long never run liao. haha. can do some sight seeing too. ^0^ lol today last day of comex. no money to buy things oso. i want to study! baka headache. go away pls, good luck guys with ur prelims!!

2009-09-12T01:14:00.001+08:00

u just got to push everything aside, for now. its gonna be over soon. this fucked life. haha. just study, for now,

2009-09-09T23:41:00.000+08:00

1nconsideration and attention seeking to the max hahaha ;p been rather crazy recently, doing a lot of these crazy stuff and dares. ^^ crazy is good u know. (:

2009-09-07T19:02:00.000+08:00

Thanks for the fun, joy and company. really appreciate it. I guess its time for mugging liao. pia for this last stretch, and go forward!! hopes i don fall sick. pls, after the classic kbox aftermath. shall spam water. and sleep soon. haha. u guys really make my day. (:

I guess i have to live it out longer then, haha. maybe _________ is really due before anything. sure man.

2009-09-06T11:04:00.000+08:00

Officially quit facebook games! really sucks. lol. no meaning in them, i realised. not real games oso, want game jiu game the good ones don go for such low grade stuff? so i think i just quit la. anyone want gear quest stuff or mousehunt gold or any shit. just tell mi horh :D haha.. today last day of dota, which will be LAN.

oh and the forest behind my house got a lot of tress fall, dam big and tall one, lucky never crash into my house. omg. haha. dam big la. confirm like wreck my house? haha.

And i think maybe just don go k box? really need to study..lol.

2009-09-05T17:51:00.000+08:00

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 ohhh~ fang da dong is da man. just love his style and expressive blues, i think i can never sing like that. totally not my style hahaha. too difficult liao. today no lan! shifted to tomorrow. though i rather it be today. so can start studying. but i think the same la. cos im going to study today oso. haha. :D played 2 dota matches just now. rust, but still manageable though lost. LOL. not a lot of changes la. so. i only scared tml we go there force to play garena i think i straight away go home? lol play garena in lan shop is fucked! seriously. haha.

I guess its better this way...but are they really delusions? just dreams, jokes and smoke? though i can understand. hahaha. its fun though.
needa new phone!! cui phone sucks. >< haha. but cui is cui but dam dependable lei. never spoil once ever since i bought it last year, unlike the other phones that i used to had. wat is this man. LOL. so its good in a way too.

2009-09-05T10:53:00.000+08:00

haha i get it. :) thanks for letting me know! haha. shit man i din prepare for chem tuition. hate this feeling man. shld have like burnt midnight oil yesterday to study. oh well. after tuition go visit nicole return notes+ study? lol then after that go lan lor.

2009-09-04T16:00:00.003+08:00

bio mcq today! the last paper of the prelims! though for me the last paper for prelims was like last week? :X owned. haha the bio mcq can do la..not that bad, before that the expressway got accident got a van burn until chao da, then can see fire and smoke. lol..wasnt late for bio though. hope the driver in the accident was okay.

After bio i pei nicole go jurong point watch movie. cos she thio pangseh by friends so i just pei her lor, see i so good friend wor. :) haha. at first wanted to watch g force, but in the end watched Up instead. lol. I like the romance part, but the others are so-so only. Lol >< quite boring the others but the animation was good, and the plot was good. so in the end okay luh, then after that go pierce my ear lor. haha. nicole say quite pain but i dint even feel anything? haha. weird o.o Lol >< then go eat lunch then talk talk talk ( emo stuff, lol unknowingly =.= din noe about her emo side :0 so i realised my situation not so bad after all) i guess every1 has their own problems. haha. then after that go home. and here i am! Have fun Kayaking!! ^^

2009-09-03T22:56:00.000+08:00

sometimes i really dont get you.. :( confused over the lost zest in u. maybe im thinking too much? >< haha. U say ur not emo, but i think other wise, there must be more than meets the eye.

Do give me a clue ya. Or maybe what u are giving are clues already. haha. I dont want to regret my path but again i haven even trodden on it yet. But i have already chosen this path over another. the only route left is you.

2009-09-03T18:06:00.000+08:00

Procrastination! I think thats a bane i need to overcome. GG. screwed up bio and chem in prelims =.= so lucky this isnt a levels or else im really screwed. haha. did a bit of work today. shall do more in the night. though its not related to bio :X LOL. Anyw chem mo de shun jian album rocks lol. dunno why fell in love with zhang dong liang songs liao =.= damn easy to sing compared to others like li sheng jie's or jay chou's. though i still suck. haha. i need more singing buddies. maybe next time kbox ask jia cheng and justin along. they're quite pro.

Tomorrow shall study inorganic chem. oh ya that means i need to study atomic structure too. haha..jiayou jiayou. eh the teacher day present i think i give..mr phua? lol. just like his friendly and helpful nature..wow..its raining so hard now huh..i like rain..its really veri beautiful, in a sorrowful way..haha. thats what it means to be bittersweet. i think im like embracing emo like never before. look forward to the day i abandon emo to shake hands with joy. its coming, hopefully.

2009-09-02T21:08:00.000+08:00

dint do much today. haha. expected la. tomorrow chiong wor. rest enuff liao. get geared up for a levels. as kiat boon always says. Mei Fen Han Shui Dou Hui You Cheng Guo! ms quek wants to see us on friday. GG. hahaha. the sms is so dire veri scary lei. still must add be mentally prepared. omg. hahaha. screwed. jia you every1 for prelims! and a levels of course. haha.

2009-09-02T14:40:00.000+08:00

Wow, its like so fast. from monday and suddenly its wednesday already. haha. shall blog starting from monday so we have a fuller picture and wrap up everything. :)

Monday was pretty much okay. I organised the nh bball outing and like we went back la. not everyone was present. pretty much of the cast were at home mugging for prelims. so. the people in nhf who went was jia cheng justin yule kiat boon cx yaozhong me j low jing yun hock seng nick. Ya but quite a number of 07 batch nan hua rians went back. but majority is still the J1s. Lol. expected la. but not bad not bad. my first time using the newly built indoor sports complex. swee la. they all so blessed can play basketball in the rain. basket! lol unlike us got rain cannot play liao boohoo and Ya their classrooms all aircon-ed like jj. hmm, yeah really miss nh a lot. veri long never go back liao. haha..just memories. oh then we play bball at the court..play play play then suddenly got accident that made cx totally guilty. the thing was that cx and keith collided and cx escaped with minor injuries while keith got to go have stitches round his eye there. orh horh cx. but everything was fine and not too serious but there was a substantial amount of blood. but should be thankful that it wasnt veri serious. yupp. then pretty much after that no1 had the mood to carry on playing and we all went to wash up and go visit teachers. at first couldnt find anyone. then we just camp outside the staff room chat then all the teachers just randomly appear one by one. first was mrs liew and then laura khoo hahaha swee la she remembered my name after reminders. last year she forgot my name la wdf hahaha quite funny la her. she forgot jingyun. but remembered after that. lol thats funny. oh and she said shes performing at the dinner later. aw sad we r not invited. haha. so after hanging arnd we went for lunch, pretty much walked around at city vibe and in the end wanted to eat at kopitiam >< indecisive behavior that is so typical of us. hahaha. it was then where they decided they wanted to go catch a movie. those who wanna mug went home and the rest of us went to JP to catch Where got ghost? haha. i think not bad la quite funny. LOL. was not as bad as i thought. i think those critiques no sense of humour? thats why they say suck. lol. after that, went to take 174 to bukit timah. pei jia cheng go back jp to find wallet though so we were late. the others went for pool. i went home. washed up and changed. get ready for a guud guud night LOL. >< veri long nvr go hang out liao so just wear nice nice. though we oni pooled like for a short while. but its enough. haha after that went to buy the whisky and kiat came. went justin house first before coming over to mine.

Lol quite funny was that me and kiat booon went pretty crazy that night. did a lot of stupid things that was video-ed. =.= oh hell no. hahaha then i sent cass several smses that was rather corny. hahaha.though kiat boon lost the dare cos he knocked out first. yeah(cos its not me =p) hahaha free jack's place liao wor. xp heh. hs din drink. haha..really aspire to be like hs. studies so diao. so must work hard la. haha. then i was the second one to sey liao then just go sleep lor. wake up several times in the night to off aircon. and helped the others put on blankets and stuff. then next day liao.

kiat boon had a hangover. lol. i think he dont dare drink liao. eh maybe if its me i oso don dare drink but miine not serious at all. that time hs oso like that thats why he oso don dare drink liao. hahaha. so we spent another whole day lazing about, gambling play guitar, using the com, eating, playing o2jam. before i headed out to Dr ang's and all is history already. haha.

Am i slowly getting attached to you? It sure seems like tt luh. but i think u oso don want to commit when we haven even go out or do anything yet..so i guess i got to restrict myself a bit more huh. hahaha. though its real nice chatting with u. i oso want a happy ending after all. (:

2009-08-30T15:17:00.000+08:00

worried for you

2009-08-27T15:10:00.000+08:00

deleted the vulgar post already. :D haha. i made a vow already, shall abide by it liao. :) if not i quit gaming and singing permenantly. hahaha. that is 1 big vow. gaming singing are integral parts of my life. therefore its a all out measure. lol. and anyw the ultra gross vids are down there LOL. have fun watching the larva eating woo

2009-08-25T10:42:00.001+08:00

2009-08-21T10:56:00.000+08:00

woo the first week of prelims is over. ah fuck. im not prepared for it at all. i tot i wont do this again for the prelims looks like im wrong.zz sick of leaving blanks bcos i dn study for tt when i actually can do 1. sibei siannn looks like must jiayou more!! don give up! though ytd i gave up=.= sucks much man. i oni study organic lor dam depressing lol. i need to prevent this from happening man. esp in the a lvls. i know i can do it de just need to put in more hard work.

2009-08-17T22:54:00.000+08:00

i wont regret this! though i know im still going to die but i got study! Lols. haha. so wont regret. Hope i can do it tomorrow! haha. jiayou jiayou omg dam tired. soul mate is sweet. :D

2009-08-11T12:40:00.000+08:00

Disaster! rocky bit dewi( e new maid) when she was trying to chain him. i was there and tried to prevent it from happening but he was too fast. looks like they still havent break the ice. also rocky misses yatik like hell. its pretty much obvious..hopefully he will get over it and get more friendly towards dewi.

today im going to finish up evolution. and maybe start on dna. hopefully... no tuition today though. quite depressed over the rocky matter sia. =(( first time in his life i see him bite ppl..really first time. shocking sia.

2009-08-09T22:39:00.000+08:00

hahaha ;D happy birthday singapore!! not that i did watch the ndp and anything. lol was studying eukaryotic genome. =.= wdf haven finish lor. tml must do evolution!! the aj clique ask me study at mac today. lols. so so la. haha and wdf is i am in newspaper. sunday times pg 23 national day edition wor somemore i posing sia hahaaha owned dao!! actually i still remember e day. but i din know the guy taking picture was a reporter oh gawd. haha and my mum is in there too!! and b world rocks my socks weeee hahaa. one of my fav places. yupps at first i tot we(nhf on the movie to watch harry potter then eat in jp carpark sitting on a wall behind got cars) got featured in stomp but lol wdf in that end is a picture of me and mum hahaa rarity indeed :pp

2009-08-08T23:31:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is kejun's birthday so i bought an album for him and delivered it to his house personally LOL. hahaha somemore at night 10+ nice sia lols. :) at long last i finished my great expectations. after like so long la. today..i din mug la gg. left one more week oni. always like tat sia. sleeping soon alr.

2009-08-08T15:04:00.001+08:00

1月14日日记情人节 Diary Day
新的一年，在日记中把对喜欢的人的表白和计划写出，在心中撒下爱的种子。

2月14日传统情人节 Valentine's Day
据西方传统，喜欢他就送他巧克力，行动要快噢。因为他不止只会收到你的巧克力。

3月14日白色情人节 White Day
他喜欢你吗？还是他只喜欢吃巧克力？送出巧克力一个月后，女生就能收到同样喜欢自己的男生送的白色糖果。吃颗糖果感觉真甜蜜。

4月14日糖果情人节 Candy Day
爱情开始萌芽，患得患失的心情就像吃着柠檬口味的糖果般又酸又甜。

5月14日玫瑰情人节 Rose Day
在一起一段时间了，他是真的爱你吗？他是你寻找的另一半吗？表白一下吧！不好意思？没关系！只在今天买玫瑰给对方就ok啦！
白色：一般朋友黄色：知己红色：爱人
你一定会送红色的。

6月14日亲亲情人节 Kiss Day
你也收到他的红玫瑰了？我闪人！因为你们马上要kiss了！今天看到别人在kiss?不用回避，因为今天是Kiss Day。

7月14日银色情人节 Silver Day
传统习俗是用银戒订婚。今天你们去买一对戴在手上，作为甜蜜心情的见证。

8月14日绿色情人节 Green Day
相爱的人们成双成对地去郊游，爬山游水感受自然，就像他们要携手走过爱情一样。

9月14日相片情人节 Music and Photo Day
练久的情歌今天终于登场了，虽然五音不全，但用心听会有会心的笑容。用相机拍下这灿烂又充满甜蜜的笑容吧！

10月14日葡萄酒情人节 Wine Day
烛光下晃动着深红色的葡萄酒，爱情也一样要用心慢慢地品味。

11月14日电影情人节 Orange and Movie Day
今晚有空吗？一起去看场电影吧！手牵手一起去电影院，记得买橙汁噢！

12月14日拥抱情人节 Hug Day
一年了，你们仍然相爱，你看天空闪烁着星星，而你们相拥在一起，希望永远停留在这一刻。。。。。。

2009-08-07T23:55:00.000+08:00

Hey girl, im sorry if i scared you. but if i didnt, just want to say you r cute lols :0 and joyce im sorry i shouldnt have told you about tt. me and my big fked mouth. ): 2nd time liao.

-.- today IS SO NOT PRODUCTIVE. haha, but i don regret la. :) gogogo work even harder! get "geared up" for a lvls man.

2009-08-06T18:55:00.000+08:00

i promised myself i wont cry or get fussed up over with you anymore, so everything on wednesday, to me, i dont really give any fucking care to it. though quite saddening is that after such a period of good will and peace? it reverts back to such situations again. i seriously dont understand you ya. but of course, i believe we will be judged for our actions, and of course there's karma. Just beware yo. Actually, if i was still the old me, i would be crying like some fucked up innocent boy who still goes on about salvaging our friendship and about how i can improve, like last year? but too bad. im so immunitised by everything u did, that totally ruined my life upside down, and that is so irreversible i sometimes i really feel that u really deserve something evil from me. but hell, its like 2 years already. and im tired of all these shit. just cant be bothered bout you u know? u bled my heart dry already, you ruined my jc life already, u killed the hong yang in jjc already. Maybe you're happy? i cant deny that im not affected by it, but well, its a promise i made to myself after all. its time i re-started my beat, revamped my pulse. So glad that i wont see you again. say goodbye to my life, dog. after so long.

2009-08-01T23:48:00.000+08:00

Happy that im actually studying, even though not much but at least im studying..haha jiayou!

Maybe i was right all along, that really loving you is the decision not to pursue you, and even though its really going to be a pity, of sweet romance, on my part, thinking of you, treasuring your smile, hoping, dreaming, wishing and that it was love at first sight, and of heart felt feelings,i dont care about myself anymore, what matters is whether you are happy. and that makes me happy, hopefully.

2009-07-29T18:14:00.000+08:00

fuck fuck fuck, prelims in 2 weeks liao la. fuck. die la, at the rate im going, i absorb dam slow lor, need to work harder. gg pon tomorrow again la, seriously cmi. ok..finished regression today..going to. tomorrow i shall do organic chem again..for chem im not going to touch inorganic for prelims. maths im going to bang on stats integration app of int DE complex number, if got time add in apgp. bio..omg i haven touch la. ccb. fuckk. how lor. next week must touch bio. CONFIRM. pls come out prelim timetable. ur essential man. zzz, bang on last year topics + this year de lor. then after prelims catch up on the remaining. G.G

2009-07-27T22:03:00.000+08:00

not a good day, esp a trip to the library which is sooo inconvenient seriously i know why the library is like NO PPl at all these days. no bus, mrt there de road closed, h1n1, sucks lots man. wasted one hour walking here and there figuring how to go home lor hahahah wat a joke. aww, im not ponning school tomorrow. shld be ponning on wednesday, sry mr er. got to do my organic worksheets tomorrow man!! cmon jiayou jiayou.

I think i just go eat vegetarian for a week. Maybe it'll be better. heard that it works. vegetarian cant eat egg? =0 means no waffles too. walked past you today. You were avoiding my eyes arent you..truly makes me sad. wonder if u even recognise me..haha.I'll just continue my wishful thinking, no doubt about that.

2009-07-26T21:30:00.000+08:00

determined not to be a bastard again, and to do better for my studying-seriously, truly apologetic for what i've done. i really cannot lose my friends. soo im really hoping that you can forgive me, my sincere apologies.

Had dinner with fifth uncle, and he was rather upset about xiao min and her attitude. Lol. hoping that every thing can turn out fine, and xue bing will be fine these 2 months as well. Complexity of human relations astound me.

2009-07-25T00:37:00.002+08:00

pon school today. again lol. just got home though. i always get damn emo on friday. EMO CLUB yeahh mann, hi 5 kiat boon hahahaha, feel like crying everytime. just cant escape this dark and insidious blackhole, these chains are suffocating me that i cant breathe, that never sets me free, forever bound until its over. im looking so much for solace, of refuge and comfort, out of this loneliness that bleeds from withnin,of painful memories that i want to bury under the ground and pretend they did not happen, and wishing that all this were just a bad dream. i had seeked the ability to turn back time so many times that it hurts to think about it, and even though i told myself that i will live my life strong, and its not that i arent doing it now, its that i really cant help it but think about all this sometimes. especially when i see couples, and how everyone is getting on so finely, that and i see how pathetic i am, though i do confide in friends, and know that my friends do know, it still hurts like hell. but wat to do but to just live it strong and have no regrets. i dont care if i pierce the thorn right into my breast, at least i hurt myself knowing that i followed my heart, and lived it well.

sorry teachers

2009-07-23T15:14:00.000+08:00

sorry sorry - want to say these to the teachers, cos i keep ponning school and nvr attend extra lessons. but its really for studying's sake..cant really keep up with the pace..i see everyone so dam mug i feel dam stressed lor, especially when im still trying to catch up. argh. hong yang jiayou!!! you can do it de! don stressed by others, follow ur own path! hope it will pay off in the end..

2009-07-19T21:48:00.002+08:00

the veri nice blog that im following now is indeed true, i seriously think is her blog haha XD managed to add her on facebook, but haven start talking cos she always not online too. Went for dinner at the stretch of road opposite beauty world today. it was really nice! we ate Tian Ji porridge, swee bo dam nice can. hahaha hopes next time can go there try other stuff too. LOL >< rather than boring old b world. =p after mrt come out cfm even more bustling de. Mom was rather unhappy today, shld be really troubled over grandma's matter. quite fucked up la. the other relatives all don wan take care of her, all like push to us, but we oso don have the capability pls. got some they seriously got they don want take care, dam assholes la. sorry but i really think u all dam assholes. and some don even know my mum retired liao and keep thinking we dam rich like that..keep expecting us to hire another maid like wat sia. we cant. cos we alr got 1 maid liao, 1 per working citizen pls, and summore how to hire under our name when she is not going to work in our address. seriously lor, some ppl health good nvr work and so kong sian don want go take care. pls la, its ur mom, don treat her like some fucking burden. assholes sia. zz cant believe im like scolding my relatives in my blog. but see my mom so fan zhao about it i really have to get it out. Some of u don even know that my mum body not well lor, still think she working horh. chao qiang. zzz

wah dam saddddd la. i will nvr let this happen to my parents in the future. :) i promise!

2009-07-16T22:10:00.002+08:00

I guess these few days i really look dam fucking emo, stressed bcos of studies la. haha. oh well. wat to do. today was much better. at least finish studying normal liao. and tml's friday.

Hey i don see you around in school anymore =( i want so much to have a chance to know u.. my heart really yearns and calls out for you, sooooo saddddddd kudos to EMO CLUB!!

2009-07-14T17:06:00.001+08:00

quite long nvr blog liao. cos don feel like bloggin mar. Ya today oso nothing to blog about. just go school, study lit, take test, go home study ionic equilibrium. can be better. but not bad liao. =D later try the tutorial. then tuition..ah everything so packed. haha. gear quest! <3

2009-07-11T09:40:00.002+08:00

omg caught a cold. lol. feeling better now though. haha, nvr exercise for awhile get sick liao wdf. so im that kind who needs to keep practising. anyw hacks is good for my throat! haha. helps a lot lor. XDD

2009-07-09T13:20:00.002+08:00

just reached home! shouldnt have taken any early leave and just study in school la. -.- come home for wat, going off to cmpb again! haha eye checkup..guess my myopia is really too deep liao. i think oni got some ppl worse than me, lol, quite expectedly. i wonder wat pes i would get into now im like D or E. now the unrest in xinjiang is sooo big. hopes things turns out fine and omfg i aced my compo wdf?! everytime so tyco. but i failed my compre badly expected. but i tot compo oso going to fail terribly. actually all my subjects going to fail terribly. oh god.

Being hopeful for coincidences will actually make u realise there are more and more chances to meet. haha, i realised its quite true, but i havent been making use of them..i dunno why but you're not looking at me anymore :( but nevertheless, i will keep on smiling for you. Not expecting much, just wanting to follow my heart

2009-07-07T21:18:00.002+08:00

I want a new blog name! suisuiseki sounds corny. it is actually. its one of the characters in the animes that i watch hehe, though i really like her traits. strong ideals, loyalty, following one's heart in the face of adversity. haha. i dont want a depressing name though its really tempting lol. it should be something positive, that i am aiming for, but live life strong seriously sounds corny though its a really strong value that i live by now. lol.

oh no grandma fell and is now in hospital, all the best! really quite aged already, must shower more love and care! 100 next year!

first day of school. not that bad, but tomorrow needs to be better! its a promise! haha. And for you, i will try my utmost, i wont regret anything, for its my life.

2009-07-04T21:26:00.002+08:00

Once again, i am having blisters!! nooo! went to play basketball with nan hua peeps today. wow, more than 15 ppl came. fun, though i really dam noob liao. hehe. i wear sports shoe still blister wdf man. owned.. somemore dam big and got blood one omg. im not bursting it, it'll become a germ party! after basketball (dam tiring la) ate lunch at west mall, then went yz house swim and tan YES IM DAMMMM RED NOW LIKE ROAST PORK (: hahaha and ohhh, i din go lan..results too lousy alr la..haha. so cannot go la. self restriction. gotta aim for prelims liaooo.. ITEKIMASU!

2009-07-01T21:17:00.002+08:00

i think i chao qiang la. tml going to go for bio. :D just fail la. its okay. got to work harder ya. and don regret watever you do! Gotta give life my best shot. the first step is to go for bio tomorrow. don escape anymore, even though i really wanted to pon so much, and it'll be hell tomorrow during the 3 hours..let it be a lesson learnt. thanks mum and dad for your guidance!

2009-06-30T13:42:00.002+08:00

woohoo ggfied to the max. this common test. sooo screwed. oh god. this is wat happens when u want to chiong at the last week and then got sick so din study at all. wdf. i really dont feel like going for bio de. after these 2 days, like go in dunno how to do waste time. today mcq kns dam difficult pls. wa siao i like 60% of the paper is tikum one lorr, mayb more than tat. summore cannot finish one. qn 30 onwards i just anyhow random put number. then teacher call time up i haven finish shading holy cow, i was rushing to fill up 40 shades in like 10 sec! lawl. ok, i'll work towards prelims, together with other flaws. work hard!
h8 doing badly for tests =((

2009-06-26T21:08:00.002+08:00

guess waat i dint study today at all hahaha ggfied to the max. went out with mum and sis summore. but oh well mye is screwed. not totally give up, but still consider..quite failure. shall do better in prelims and most importantly, the "A's" (: im so glad im not down with fever again. haha yay cos i was feeling feverish again today wdff. ok tomorrow full steam chem, sunday maths. haha. die. xpp

Hope like got infection then hols, or maybe postpone MYE, then i can study finish.

2009-06-25T21:30:00.000+08:00

thanks everyone for being there for me =) im okay now! XDD

haha finished galvanic cell and gaseous state today, omg dam fucking slow can. -.- nvm. haha. already die liao. unlike eomeone who din even study WDF. he is like so totally obssessed with his stead sia. HAHAHA, not that its bad or anything hehe LAWL. ok i shall mug MAX!! monta style ^^

2009-06-23T19:47:00.003+08:00

i want to cry...suffering from relapse now. gawd..after so long then suddenly come back..fuck..just go away la..so sad, so lonely, this is so depressing...wats worse is common test. fuck it la. knn. dont want to post these few days, cos no one wants to see depressing posts. but i just have to get it out la. my heart yearns for comfort..yet no one is there... hope i'll be okay tomorrow..fuck this shit. nabei

2009-06-21T10:04:00.002+08:00

omg omg omg, fuzzy wuzzy woozy doozy. went to see doctor yesterday, the medicine totally makes me feel that way. Ahh, common test is really screwed. gg. ): shall go back sleeping..think by today i will be okay liao..cmon! i shall focus on chem.

2009-06-19T20:22:00.002+08:00

sickkk! fever again O.O got to be better by tomorrow..gotta mug!! haha, shall sleep early today and get good rest. but the fever so random, hope its nothing serious.(JUST SUDDENLY COME ONE LOR WA LAO EH) feel a lot better after the pacofen though. hopes alls good. Yup. wa lao, ying shuen go scare me, ask me go her blog see i dam scared something serious happen, ok la happy for her she decided to follow her path. All the best!!! (:

EYESHIELD 21 rules. great anime.

2009-06-18T22:38:00.003+08:00

wa siao dam stress these days zz common test is screwed. i started too late. omg. lol. nvm learn from this lesson, meanwhile i will try my best! gogogo! must learn to relax oso..addicted to eyeshield 21 oso. wth LOL. dam nice pls. dont like the sena obsessed with shin part, wdf dam gay pls. like..zz love. wdf. lol. tomorrow i going library. cant pangseh cos i already agreed. oh well! haha, but i got maths tuition tomorrow ):

2009-06-16T19:43:00.004+08:00

2009-06-15T23:01:00.002+08:00

First up, i would really like to thank everyone for making my day so enjoyable! really kudos to u guys for everything and i really appreciate wat u all had done for me (: and thanks to those who wished me a happy birthday too XDD wishing u all best in ur wishes too, and in studies or future endeavours too =)

Shall be posting photos of the seoul garden bbq and singapore flyer tomorrow, today quite late already, and im beat haha! Oh i went seoul garden with my family and 5th aunt and uncle. LOL their first time at seoul garden, rather amusing that they dunno how to cook the food heheh, and yay i ate the most, even though it was really veri little omg. its just two plates of meat leiii, lol used to eat 4. haha! at least there were no rotten eggs today! haha! after seoul garden, still got some time left before cine so we all decided to go on singapore flyer wooooo 10 bucks for me yay! (dam cheap pls, for students til july on weekdays! so go now ) ok la 30 mins ride. swee swee, the thing actually moves quite fast, but it doesnot feel so, imagine the physics behind it omg! hahaha its really veri romantic if its at night..awww..hahah. ohh after that 5th uncle bought me and sis glow in the dark shirts! THANKS uncle (: woots haha

After which i left for cine, and met up with the rest of the gang. 14 peeps including joel haha so random cos they met him on mrt and pulled him along. LOL yay in the end i din lose money for the movie thing and we all got tickets for 6 bucks and yess ghosts of girlfriend past is fabulous! its the best out of all the noob shows out there now. haha! and its rather touching as well, and teaches one not to be a flirt too. =DD also, another great romantic film for couples, oh well hahaha! the lan was cancelled, lucky thing too, i came back in time for the cake celebration at home thanks mum and dad (: and sis too for the presents. <33 the bleach chibi. haha! thanks joyce( for personally delivering to my house even), tan min(for being such a nice friend throughout), ying shuen( for the hard effort spent in finding earpiece) , ke jun(for buying such a great album), mum, dad, sis for the presents! and hock seng for organising the outing for me and kiat boon. really touching.. :) love u guys( and gals) lots. ^^

2009-06-12T16:49:00.003+08:00

PCR PTC workshop is a bang! XDD i love it a lot. haha! here is everything in a nutshell: Polymerase chain reaction workshop to test for the gene for tasting bitter taste of PTC from cheek cells. omg dam fun pls, LOL, i did with aravin. first up we had to gargle a veri disgustingly salty and medical-tasting solution like omfg. dam er xin pls. lol after that we need to isolate the cells, lyse them, get the dna, PCR it to multiply it, and subject them to gel electrophoresis for testing for 221 base pairs( non tasters), 177(and 41) base pairs(tasters), or both 221 and 177(weak tasters). LOL i am a weak taster, haha we get to taste control and ptc papers, hmm rather mild bitterness. ok la, but still quite bitter the taste. lol. wat i love is we get to wear lab coats(first time), use high tech equipment like micropipettes,micro centrifuge,agarose gel electrophoresis and bioinformatics. omgg bio heaven. omg omg, haha and ms lim quite cute la hahaha. and the centrifuge spins at 10900rpm HOLY SHIT MAN 10900 rounds per minute. gay ttm lol. haha sad that we dont get to go to more of these workshops. Ohh, LOL then ms lim's superior go question me and get feedback from me about the PCR workshop. hahaha! then she nervous o.o funny hahah mr er came like halfway, he said he non taster. hmm, anyw the primates does taste PTC, its one of the evolutionary traits that is passed down by natural selection cos bitter most of the time= poison and the trait to taste bitter is beneficiary to survival but now, in homo sapiens the phenotype for this trait is no longer necessary for survival, and thus there are increasing phenotypes of weaker or non tasters in the gene pool. whee. haha. ok here are some photos. Haiz, always chained, i guess i can never be immune. Im not as strong as hardened people, but ignorance is my escapade, shall not drown myself in grief nor sorrow nor self pity.. oh all the pics are taken from aravin. my phone camera sucks. nooo

2009-06-11T22:59:00.003+08:00

Went for choir bbq today! verii funn =DD haha, and ok la, the food oso not bad, and i got a few touching gifts. ^^ yay! Lol, i think the most fun game we had was "Bolt" or say, the name memorising game. hahah that was the most fun lor. and there was truth or dare, and card games la. so overall i think more fun than last year de. haha! pretty tired already, so i guess i'll retire for the night! and thanks everyone for such a nice farewell party <33 =)

2009-06-08T18:37:00.003+08:00

Fuck. Today's common test is the most screwed gp paper i had done in my life. wa cmi la. dam sad pls. i cant even understand the passage at all. demoralising it is indeed.macabre and dire it is. Hope this spurs me to greater heights..
Need to stop complaining and start doing stuff about it. All words and no action sucks. Cmon, i can do it. Dont stress, just take it steady and pick up momentum, study strong, be strong. (: